tidbits of my life
So, my birthday this year is.. awesome! Instead of celebrate it with my close acquintances, I chose not to celebrate it. I went to Ujung Kulon to meet rhinocerros to retreat and take a break from my small comfortable noisy world, with a few strangers (not to mention my boyfriend :p).
I think it’s good to take a breakaway in my special day. I also hide my birthday in the social media.. so I guess only people who knows me really well, will remember my birthday also. It is not that I want to avoid my dearest people. It’s just somehow special day can make me feels like I am important, people loves me, everything’s OK, etc etc.. and those are exactly the feelings that I want to get away.
Thank God for every bright new day, for Your 2nd, 3rd, 4th, chances in my life.. I also want to thank all of my family and bestfriends for being in my life for all this time. Thank you for watching me grow up, to slap me on the face whenever I need it, to give me gentle or hard words and let me learn more. Even I want to thank the robber that got my wallet. Thank you for all the lessons for this 24 years 🙂
Birthday is not always about presents and fancy dinner. For me, it is about realizing that my time is keep on ticking.. less day to live in this world. It is not always about receiving, but it is also about loss. A week after my birthday, I got my passport. And then the next week I got robbed. If I didn’t got my passport before, I won’t have any identity to process my ATM cards, etc. Borrowing Pi Patel’s, in the end the whole life becomes an act of letting go but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye.. to things or person you think you’ll always have, then take it for granted. This loss also made me believe more and more that no matter I will to lose, He will always take care of me along the road of life. Even I am to stumble, I won’t fall too deep because I have His Hands upholds me 😉
23The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
24 though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.